WatchJenGo

That’s about what I need, 2 hours more each day.  I want to get up early and do my devotions and workout.  I have to do it in the morning since I am DEAD tired after work.  I can’t seem to get my buns out of bed, though.  I feel exhausted, even when I get a decent night’s sleep.  It’s usually crappy sleep and when I get up (early) it’s chaos time, get kids ready, feed everyone.  shower, dress me, dress them, start the car, make a lunch, do the dishes, brush my teeth, brush their teeth, on and on and on and you get the point.  Rush them to daycare then off to work for almost 10 hours.  AAAAAAGGGGGHHH.  Enough already. 

On the bright side, I am eating GREAT and not craving anything and not cheating, not even a little.  I am down 12 pounds in 16 days.  I am taking my vitamin everyday and have now added fish oil and calcium w/extra vitamin D to the mix.  I am liking foods I never liked before, like lettuce in my pita sandwiches.  Used to HATE it, now I eat it all the time.  And onions.  I put onions and celery in lots of stuff now.  Who am I really?????? HMMMMM

I bid you bon nuit

THE TIMES, THEY ARE A’CHANGIN’

Love you guys!

Jen

I am dog tired, but I haven’t blogged in days and I need to.  This thing is really keeping me going, I’m serious.  I wanted to do a post and list my very personal reasons why I am on this road again and once and for all.

1. To surrender this addiction and bring honor to God.

2. Both my parents are dying from heart disease

3. Right now I have ALL the risk factors of heart disease except I don’t smoke.

4.  All the women in my family have type 2 diabetes and it’s breathing down my neck

5. My cholesterol is high

6. Most of my clothes don’t fit

7. I am tired of feeling like crap

8. For my kids

9. I have a new wardrobe (seriously, 100’s of $$ worth) in my closet, waiting from the last time I lost weight, but never made it all the way to my goal.

10.  Fitting comfortably in the rides at Cedar Point

11. Going out dancing w/my best friend will be SO much better

12. To feel more feminine again (feel like blob in t shirts and jeans)

13. Be an inspiration to others

14. Tired of being the fat friend

15. I want to enjoy looking at pictures of myself and family/friends

16. To qualify for breast reduction surgery

17. Losing this much weight may help lessen my migraines/back and neck pain

18. I have a romantic getaway vacation coming in October

19. So my personality and how I feel that I look inside versus what I look like outside match

20.  To feel whole/complete/like myself again

THANKS FOR LISTENING
Love you guys!

Jen

Day 12 and no cheating IF you can believe it.  I am really loving eating this way again, why the heck did I ever stop?  Fast food makes me feel like CRAP.  It’s so much harder this time with a full time job and 2 kids, not enough hours in the day.  I am doing great eating and preparing, but haven’t fit in exercise anywhere.  Can’t wait till spring, it’s SO cold I almost can’t stand it, makes my hair hurt it’s so cold. 

Thanks to all who’ve been reading and responding, it’s motivating and inspiring and like Nancy, I am TERRIBLE and doing a journal.  I have a bunch I started and never finished, this is WAY easier, faster and so many nice people to chat with.  Well, good luck to all and kudos to you.  Take care of yourselves and see you again very soon!!!!

Jen

Feels that way anyways, holding steady at 8 pounds lost in 10 days which is great, but  scale hasn’t moved in 3 days.  Body getting adjusted I guess?   I am eating so well, high protein, fiber.  Low cal, low salt, low sugar/carb.  Ah well… Need to get exercising, as much as I dread it, as much as I don’t have ANY time to do it.  Well, I could get up earlier.  Wait, that would ALMOST be like not going to bed at all!!!

OK Negative Nelly, that’s quite enough of that. 

I wasn’t sure what I was going to think about doing a blog, and didn’t know a THING about this site in particular, but I am really glad I’m doing this.  Some people are really nice and there’s lots of good conversation and advice.  Always someone to tell you exactly what you need to hear.  Thanks everyone for your comments! 

Take care of you!

Jen

Dark chocolate cake baking in the oven.  My house smells AWESOME and my stomache is trying to eat itself.  Friend’s birthday and I LOVE to cook, LOVE to bake, which is BAD people considering I need to lose 80-110 pounds eventually.  I am actually really really enjoying eating healthy.  God has helped me find time to shop, prepare, etc. etc. to make this happen.  Especially hard since we’re on mandatory overtime until the world ends. 

*sigh*  I really want cake.  Think my friend would notice the missing piece?? LOL.  Yes, I guess you’re right….Anways, something feels different this time.  I am really ready to be healthy, to be slimmer.  I am running from heart disease, diabetes, high cholesterol, flabby parts and pieces, etc.  Just had enough, you know????  It’s time my friends….it’s on!

Jen

Dark chocolate cake baking in the oven.  My house smells AWESOME and my stomache is trying to eat itself.  Friend’s birthday and I LOVE to cook, LOVE to bake, which is BAD people considering I need to lose 80-110 pounds eventually.  I am actually really really enjoying eating healthy.  God has helped me find time to shop, prepare, etc. etc. to make this happen.  Especially hard since we’re on mandatory overtime until the world ends. 

*sigh*  I really want cake.  Think my friend would notice the missing piece?? LOL.  Yes, I guess you’re right….Anways, something feels different this time.  I am really ready to be healthy, to be slimmer.  I am running from heart disease, diabetes, high cholesterol, flabby parts and pieces, etc.  Just had enough, you know????  It’s time my friends….it’s on!

Jen

Ok, I had to give in a buy a pair of pants, which I swore I wouldn’t do.  I was punishing myself for gaining weight by wearing the only pair of jeans that really still fit almost everyday.  Wash, wear, wash, wear.  People at work must have thought I was crazy.  Or dirty, lol.  Anyways, I decided to stop beating myself up and bought a cheap pair of jeans, I feel a little better about myself already.  Got a LONG road to go, but down 8 pounds in 8 days.  Hopefully, I’ll keep this blog up long enough for you all to read about me 200 days from now or 110 pounds from now, or whatever. 

Don’t give up!  Don’t wear the same fat pants everyday, they make you feel bad.

Jen

Thank GOD tomorrow is Friday!  I can’t take much more, let me tell you.  Work is dogging us bad, we are SO far behind financially I feel like giving up and I am perpetually tired.  The silver lining?  God will get us through, I am losing weight, I HAVE a job (even if I detest every moment), my kids are healthy, etc etc.  Ok, I feel better already, just had to let off some steam. 

Day 8 (think I boo boo’d and said that yesterday).  Eating GREAT, actually feels good to eat healthy again.  Crap food makes me feel like crap, for real.  Still not enough hours or willpower in the day to exercise.  That needs to get added to the mix here soon *sigh*

Hope you are all haning in there too, doing well, eating well!  Take care, talk to you soon enough.

Jen

Ok, I had to give in a buy a pair of pants, which I swore I wouldn’t do.  I was punishing myself for gaining weight by wearing the only pair of jeans that really still fit almost everyday.  Wash, wear, wash, wear.  People at work must have thought I was crazy.  Or dirty, lol.  Anyways, I decided to stop beating myself up and bought a cheap pair of jeans, I feel a little better about myself already.  Got a LONG road to go, but down 8 pounds in 8 days.  Hopefully, I’ll keep this blog up long enough for you all to read about me 200 days from now or 110 pounds from now, or whatever.  Well, off to work.  *sigh*

Don’t give up!  Don’t wear the same fat pants everyday, they make you feel bad.

Jen

Not me! Ha.  Day 6 and down 7 pounds.  Haven’t added exercise to the routine yet, but project healthy eating is underway.  Got some girls at work excited and they’re trying too.  Good motivation for me. 

I just keeping pusing forward day by day, trying not to have that feeling that the other shoe is going to drop and I’m going to freak out, eat a bunch, get really depressed for doing so and start this whole crazy circle all over again.  But so far so good.  Thank GOD. 

Thanks to those with encouraging words.  I’ve never done a blog, but it’s easier than a journal.  Probably because I type all day anyways.  There are so many inspirational stories and neat people on here.  But anyways, tuck in for the night and stay warm you in the midwest, or cool you in the south or whatever you wherever.  Take good care of you!!!!!

Jen :o)